"Borders?

I have never seen one.
But I have heard they exist in the minds of some people".

- Thor Heyerdahl


It's snowing!!!!!!!!!!! ;-)

waitin' time...

My friend asked me 2day how am I doing and... I started to complain... you know, as a woman I have to complain from time to time, but I notice I become so much polish! Gosh, I hate it. Here, in my country, people complain all the time for everything, noone is happy, sometimes I listen to them and thinking 'what the fuck is wrong with you!' ... so it scares me to death when I see myself as one of those people!

I consider myself as a very positive person and even if I feel down it doesn't take long time. Right now it's my 'waitin' time'. I'm waiting for my bro to come home, I haven't seen him for last 2 months and it's too long, life is so different (so full of positive things) when he is in town. I'm also waiting for winter - I want skiing! Or snowboarding, whatever... "I feel a need, the need for a speed!".... Yes, that's the most important thing, I just need to feel speed!!!

I was also thinking of past year and I can't complain, it was a good year:
1. The New Year Eve I spent in Torun - was amazing!
2. In February I visited Norway - was lovely!
3. In March I visited Cork - was crazy!
4. In June I left to Ireland again and spent there whole summer - visited some places and had great time with friends, met many new people from different countries and enjoyed every second ;-)
5. In September I went to Slovakia where I started bikind and felt in love with this sport!
6. In October I went to Helsinki and Stockholm and can't even describe how wonderful time I had there!

I aslo visited many places in Poland, met many nice people, ended up my first year at new school with great result, tried some 'profesional' photography and so on...

And again - I have many plans for future!
Prague in December, maybe Norway (skiing in Hemsedal sounds better than wondeful!) and Wales at the begging of new year (and Paris!!!), or just 'life trip' to Brazil... we'll see!

...and becouse I LOVE YOU,

I can't be selfish with you.

Finland - my LOVE, my HOME... coz nothing compares to you

It's been 15 hours since I landed at Warsaw airport and I'm feeling totally down...I can't explain why but I'm crazy in love with Finland... every step, every person, every little thing in Helsinki made me laugh like a crazy, made my heart beats faster, made me be the happiest person walking on this earth... And now, I'm laying in my bed, listening my 'finnish' song and wondering 'how the hell it happened?'. I've never been interested in this country, I've never thought 'bout learing finnish - even more - I think it's one of the hardest to learn languages ever and for me - impossible to adopt... I don't like cold and long winters, I don't have my family there and not even boyfriend, so what? What makes me be so crazy about this place? What makes me cry during every flight back to my country, what makes me feel 'finnish homesick' for next few days...? I will probably never find the answer...

happiness, all around happiness..

don't really know why but i'm feeling very happy. butterflies in my stomach, smile on my face. new studies, new apartment, new people, new hobbies. but also old and the same family, old and the same best friends. right time, right place. couldn't ask for more...maybe could? haha yeah, made some wish when saw a double rainbow, but it would be an extra benefit , very nice but not necessary benefit..;-)

Back at home! Happy:)

I'm back at home and I'm happy! Poland is a very weird country and there is a lot of stuff that drives me crazy here but in same cause I feel it's my home right now. And it will be for next year. Hope the last year...

one week, one weekend

Haven't write anything for a quite long time...I feel empty of the real emotion. I can't believe I started to be naive again, I started to believe again.. I can't believe it happened here, in the place where the real life doesn't exist. Last weekend opened my eyes. I've done some things just to see 'after effect' and I was dissapointed. But I quickly understood that was only my foult, being naive it's just a part of being me. Anyway, after seeing clearly what's going on here I decided go to home 2 weeks earlier. I don't give a shit about people that pretend to be my friends or to like me, coz that kind of friends you can always have more than 100, but what when you really need someone? The true is it's very difficult to find someone that really care about you here... (but fortunately I know it's possible:)).

Nowedays I'm really happy. I'm happy with my decision and can't wait to be back in my life. I love being here, I like meeting new people, I like partying with them, I like silly chatting and even clubing in electro disco (not too often!), but it's just how summer should look like, and now summer for me is over! One more week, one more weekend! I will miss it, but I know I can do something more productive than that :-)