i'm loving it!

 ha, 3 years ago i posted this:

 "I'm turning 26 today...I think this means I have to go and get a real job now. I think this means I should fold and iron my clothes after they come out of the dryer. Probably I should change stuff in my wardrobe and buy some 'adult' clothes as my mum says. By all rights, I should be married by now and thinking about what to name the kids I haven't conceived as yet. Hmmm. Something Bohemian. Something clever. Something original. But not too obscure so as to make his/ her life hell in middle school. So maybe - Sunniva or Tarja for a girl but for a boy? Don't know... hm, maybe Dag or Arjan? Or maybe just a lovely polish 'Jaś' and 'Małgosia'?
No. I am not quite there yet. The laundry is warm and welcoming when you wear it straight out of the dryer and I love my clothes and the fact I wear sneakers every day...

But I guess I should have numerous questions running through my mind like what will happen to me? What is expected of me? What should I already be doing? Some people think the answer is important becouse 'You're not getting any yonger and any prettier, be serious!'

But you know what? I don't give a shit. I'm still taking things one day at a time. I am eagerly waiting to face the surprises which life has for me this year. I don't feel 26. It's just a number. And the fact that I am that old doesn't make me have palpitations. I feel good! :-)"

2day is my b-day again, and im feeling like nothing has changed;)
i love the way i live and i wouldn't change anything. i love "the moment in time' that brought me here and im thankful for all i've got so far. i love the place and people that make me feel safe and welcome here but at the same time im still full of dreams and this is not my last word. and yes, i still don't give a shit about "how my life shoudl look like",  i'm far to crazy for normal life anyway:)))

the day when i fell in love with Zurich...

yes, thats true. i've been missing writting so much but since i haven't been sure how i feel about living here i didint want to share my thoughts. now everything has changed. i honestly can't express how beautiful this city is and how lucky i feel by having opportunity to live here.

i love those little cobbled streets with hidden little coffee shops at every corner, i love the old amazing architecture of almost every building, i love beautiful fancy shops and all "broken houses" and amazing shops with antiques that moves your imagination at the moment you look at them.... i love to hear not only german, but french and italian while walking on the street, i love the multicultural environment and a guy who listen to frank sinatra at the bus stop... but the most of all i love Zurich's lake and a park around, i love the guy who plays sax every sunday and the atmosphere of freedom and happiness...

THIS IS MY NEW HOME. and im glad

life and it's meaning

odkąd wróciłam do Norwegii nie potrafię sobie znaleźć miejsca. nic mi się tutaj nie podoba, nic mnie nie cieszy, rzeczy które wcześniej wywoływały mój uśmiech dziś mnie irytują. najbardziej przeszkadza mi chyba to, że tak naprawdę moje życie nie ma żadnego konkretnego znaczenia, nie zmieniam nic na lepsze, nie pomagam ludziom potrzebującym... pracuje żeby jakoś przetrwać, uczę się języka żeby dostać lepszą pracę, żeby zarabiać więcej, ale tak właściwie po co? gdzie w tym sens? nigdy nie obchodziły mnie pieniądze i warunki w jakich mieszkam (no może z wyjątkiem okresu nastoletniego gdzie nie posiadanie swojego pokoju było najstraszniejszą rzeczą pod słońcem) a zmaterializowanie tego świata doprowadza mnie ostatnio do obłędu. szukam wyjścia, ale jak i gdzie?

the ideal world is a jorney not a place

'you just have to take a risk...always? yeah, always ;)'

drinking my first coffee 2day and looking at the cover of my fashion bible called VOGUE... music plays in the background which fills my head with thoughts, emotions, dreams and hopes but most of all memories 'who i was' and guastions 'who am i now?'...

'you just have to take a risk...always? yeah, always'
can get over this one sentance that i heard a few days ago becouse it is simply so true. we mostly regret thigs we havent done and changes we didint take.

nie chce być niewolnikiem polskiego schematycznego myslenia a lapie sie na tym ze jest to we mnie bardzo mocno zakorzenione. ostatnie 3 lata w pl daja znac o sobie, mysle o tym czego oczekuja ode mnie inni, a zapomnialam kompletnie o tym ze przeciez w tym wszystkim, w calym MOIM zyciu, powinno byc miejsce przede wszystkim dla MNIE, tego czego ja chce... ze wszystkimi szalonymi decyzjami i konsekwencjami ktore one ze soba niosa...

dreams

i like dreaming, imagine my future in many different ways and possibilities. but in all those dreams one thing stays always the same, my dream house  (hope i will be lucky enough to own one!)
besides library room, where all shelfs will be made from wood, full of old books bought at antiquarian bookshops from all over the world and a rocking chair, where i will seat every night with glass of wine reading all those books, i wanna have a music room. full of old instruments, record player and CD's with music that i love. it will be also colorfull carpet on the floor where i will lay down listen to frank sinatra and looking at the stars throught the glass roof...

world

music makes me think, feel, imagine stories, hear the voices i don't wanna hear in real life... i like Norway a lot, but have been living here 2 months and im kinda bored already, huge world is out there and i can't find the way to get there!