Saturday, January 29, 2011


Do you guys believe in DESTINY?

im listening 'the prostitutes' ( - i had 'THE TIME OF MY LIFE' by listen to them live) right now, chatting with one of my best friends from Denmark and laughing...
i've just found my internet diary from 'that time' (my first life trip abroad!), i was amazing girl...haha (i dont think 'high' about myself, but im proud of what i've done so far)

i was over 20 when i left Poland first time... i went to Denmark by an accident, i couldnt speak ANY ENGLISH, i have never been abroud before! it was crazy, but it was amazing in some way too;)
i love young people that are not afraid of life, people that are doing what they want, choosing their own way... 20's is their time, this is the time for making mistakes, for taking opportunities...nobody can tell you how ur life should looks like, you have to make ur decisions, sometimes you have to risk - you may win, but you may fail too, but its your victory and your failure, and thats important!

i met amazing people there! it wasnt only nice and easy period, it was difficult time as well. first time abroad, far away from friends, family... but it made me stronger and wiser - 6 months - enough to change all my future life...i was crying while leaving Denmark, i remember that day like it was yesterday.

later on - the craziest idea of going to France - i remember when my parents took me to the airport, i told them that im going to stay there forever. i had so many plans, dreams...and then disappointment - so far the biggest in my whole life, i couldnt even explain why i felt so down, i just felt that it wasnt right place, it wasnt right time...i was crying every night since i came there, i had job, i was studying french-my biggest dream, but deeply in my heart i knew it wasnt what i really needed/wanted, or maybe it wanst my real destiny...

i came back to Pl very soon and at the same time realized i have the best parents and family ever.
i started new studies at Business School, found the job and...
i couldnt get out of my head dreams about Norway - it wasnt a time when u could bought a cheap ticket and went there for a weekend, at least i couldnt afford it. and i didint want it...right now im happy when i can take a weekend trip, but when i was younger i always wanted to know everything about the country i was going to, get to know the coulture, people, how life looks there. i was writing fotoblog at that time, every day i was looking for a pic from Norway at the internet, then i put it in my blog and wrote: 'some day i will visit this place' - and i was right! (so far i visited all those places in Norway, of course there are still places that I have never been too - eg the north of Norway)
i decided to go to Norway during the summer break, i had a break from studies, i droped my job and decided to faced my dream...
i hadn't back until next year, i was so in love with Norway, people there, beautiful nature, language. i was studying norwegian, working, meeting new people, discovering Norway in every possible way. I remember the day when i met Jared Leto at one of the Oslo's pubs, i remember my trip around Norway, i remember my first conversation in Norwegian, i also rememebr a very popular in Poland norwegian ski-jumper walking at some shopping mall in Olso and noone's asked him for an autograph, photo (Adam Malysz wouldnt be able to do it!) was all so new for me!
one day i wrote on my fotoblog 'i wont make mistakes anymore, i belong to Norway' but some time later i left Norway too, even if I loved that country more than anything, its still my home, i have my family and friends there... i just wasnt enough mature to realized that THIS IS MY PLACE

im older and wiser now (at least i think so!) and everything is different. sometimes you have to lose something to realized how important it is for you. and as long as you really want something, it will come true. I can guarantee you that!!!
so don't be affraid, just take what you want, risk, this is ur life - and ONLY YOURS.

"Impossible is nothing"

I don't have to be anything other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Monday, January 24, 2011

Good Morning world!

ufff, waking up at 5am is pretty tough, and my coffee isn't good enough this morning...
but still...have so many good memories, couldn't stop smiling yesterday...noticed a funny thing at Sunday night and couldn't get it out of my head! I have to improve my norwegian-for sure! fucking annoying if you can't understand all you wanted haha

right now my stress level is soooo high (becouse of our 'wonderful' Polish education system which I hate!), and I have no clue how I will survive the next 2 weeks, so I beggin you - if anyone reads this blog - please wish me luck!!!


So you walk into this restaurant,
Uh strung out from the road
And you feel the eyes upon you,
As you're shakin' off the cold
You pretend it doesn't bother you,
But you just want to explode
Yeah, most times you can't hear 'em talk,
Other times you can

Ah But here I am, on the road again,
There I am, up on the stage
Here I go, ah playin' star again,
There I go, turn the page

Saturday, January 22, 2011

I miss SUMMER!

Crazy mix of pics taken in Norway, Denmark, Finland, Ireland, Slovakia, Poland...
I love summer, sun, craziness, positivism and happiness all around!
I also love traveling, all those amazing people, new places and new incredible experience;) And FREEDOM I love too...and dancing crazy stuff, jumping in the leaves (and on a trampoline),and mountain biking through the forest...eating jelly shots, drinking cocktails, trying to fly and smiling 24/7! This is life;)

But winter isn't that bad, especially in Zakopane! What is happening there now is just amazing! I'm proud I'm Polish;-)

Friday, January 21, 2011

'guys' evening...

i love my bros;) i have a great connection with them and they are responsible for who i am 2day;) a few minutes ago i said to them "fuck guys, since i am a girl i should drink champagne and eat strawberries" and they served me extra beer and bacon crisps...
no wonder i get along with guys;-)

Thursday, January 20, 2011

songs for 2day...

I could sell my soul for one summer party night! Fortunately got a lovely plan for Sunday;)

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

too many things, to little time!

Im tired as hell...Drinking my 4th coffee 2day and listening 'welcome to the jungle'...

Ive been sleeping a few hours a night for last 2-3 weeks and im exhausted. I look like a vampire...maybe I should looking for a casting for 'the vampire diaries' or 'true blood' haha... ye, not really funny when I look in the mirror!

anyway, 2-3 more weeks and its end of exams session;) Then it will be time for taking care of my body and do some nice fotoshooting!

I also realized that I dont wanna be part of this fucking system anymore so im moving abroud as soon as I finish next semester at Uni, probably in June!;)

Sunday, January 16, 2011

im losing my way...

Can anybody out there hear me?
'Cause I can't seem to hear myself
Can anybody out there see me?
'Cause I can't seem to see myself
There's gotta be a heaven somewhere
Can you save me from this hell?
Can anybody out there feel me?
'Cause I can't seem to feel myself

Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help find my way?
Losing my way
Keep losing my way
Keep losing my way
Can you help me find my way?

I lost my cat 2day. It sounds stupid but actually it touch me. How can you be so cruel to hit an animal and let it die on the road? You can't even called that person a human...

Friday, January 14, 2011

'I like you',

'You are amazing','Oh, you are so cute', 'You are so beautiful', You are a party animal!', 'You are crazy!', 'You are incredible', 'You are so different', 'Your eyes hypnotize', 'I've never met person like you before', 'You are so nice but so easy to irritate', 'I like your way of thinking','Drink with me party girl!','I find you physically attractive', 'I'm so lucky I met you','I LIKE YOU'...

I've just realized how difficult life might be when people think they know you, but in fact they don't know anything about you...they saw your pictures, or talked with you for couple of minutes and they're sure they know everything. They are not interested about 'the real you' at all coz they are simply so empty inside...I may understand guys at the party... they're saying all these 'nice words' coz they just want to sleep with you and don't really care who are you as a person... even though I DO NOT WORK LIKE THAT and sometimes it's fucking annoying when somebody treats you like a stupid doll.
But for sure I don't understand people who I met while travelling or somewhere else and they're sure they know me so well...they were partying with me one night, talked few minutes and saw some pics of me and that's it, that's enough for them to put me in their scheme e.g "You are crazy!". I don't get how people can be so sure about that? They could say " seems to be crazy but I don't know you enough to be sure" and that would be right. The true is they don't want get to know you at all, don't want to think, it could complicated them, it could force them to asking...and it sounds scary...coz what if they will find something deeper?

It's so easy for people to say words, even those important ones. I'm pretty sure there is just a few people that know me well, know who I am and what did I get through and when they're saying "Anna, I like you", or "Anna I love you, you are zajebista" I know they really mean that;)

Monday, January 10, 2011

When you find your path... must not be afraid. You need to have sufficient courage to make mistakes.

Friday, January 7, 2011

who's goin' with me to Brazil???

I can promise you FUN!!!!!!!!!

I love evenings like that: sitting, drinking 'mix-up beers drink' from my fav beer mug (memento bought at Octoberfest 2008 - if you will ever have opportunity to go there - don't think, just go! It's the craziest time and place ever!) and listening Tori Amos and Maynard from Tool "Muhammad my friend" - amazing song...

So, what I was talking about? Ah, yes, trip to Brazil!
I was talking with my best Brazilian friend 2day and she invited me to Brazil one more time...I met her in Ireland some time ago, we used to work there, we are still in touch and she is one of the greatest people I have met in my whole life!
So I'm thinking of going there, maybe about April/May, not sure, but if any of you would be interested let me know;) More people, more fun! ok, I mean A LOT OF FUN!;););)

Her storie is really cool, she left Brazil as a teen and she came to Ireland just for summer to improve her english. Then she stayed 2 years, studying and working. Then she met a Danish guy, they felt in love and decided to go to Brazil 2gether for a year, and then they will be back in Europe. Even if he didin't know any Port. he decided to go with her, and they are working there now and are extremaly happy! So cute;)

I also got a message from my finnish friend. She is in Mexico, visiting her Mexican bf. And this story is CRAZY! She met him by, he was looking for a place to stay while travelling around day he was visiting Helsinki and she hosted him. He felt in love with her but had to go to Mexico... so last summer she took a holiday trip to Mexico and they met again. Of course they had a great time, and she was so in love when I visited her in October. Now she is in Mexico again... Of course they're having a tough time also, everybody who's been in a long-distance relationship knows it's fucking difficult, but as you can see, it's possible;)

Love writes an incredible stories...and I am extremely happy when I know that the best people walking on the earth(my friends!) are happy!

ps Have you seen "Inception"? What do you think? Each and every of my friends have a different opinion!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

what didin't kill you

makes you stronger!

Being in bad mood it's such wasting of time! There are some important things in life but the rest should be a pleasure...:) So no more complaining, time to fight for life!

Got some pretty cool ideas what to do next and hope will share it with you soon;)

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


'I’m just so fucking depressed
I just can’t seem to get out of this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump'

The worst feeling ever is the feeling when sb/sth is ruining ur dreams and you just can't do anything... 2day I found out I can't go to Norway in the beggining of February as I planed before (I've already booked my ticket so if anyone would like to go to Norway let me know) and some other stuff came out...

My bro used to say: "if you think you couldn't be happier and your life is wonderful it means that something bad is going to happen".

'somebody, please, hug me'

Monday, January 3, 2011

Lay besides me...

"Lay beside me
Tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear
To make my demons run
The door is locked now
But it's open if you're true
If you can understand the me
Then I can understand the you..."

Sad memories may be replaced by beautiful dreams

Sunday, January 2, 2011

The New Year's Resolution...

I think it's quite normal that we always make 'the new years resolution' at the beginning of every new year...especially girls ;-)
So, I was also thinking of what I have to change this year to be happier and obviously I made some list in my head. I heard that we can keep one of every 10th resolutions, so simply - if you made 100 new resolutions at the end of the year you will keep 10. Not well rounded at all...

Anyway, right now I realized it's all bullshit. I've just spent (wasted?!) some time on facebook, chatting with friends that lives abroud... it's amazing how many wonderful, crazy and unique people I met during last years. It's amazing that my best friends live in Finland, Norway, Sweden, Denmark, Ireland and other countries. And it's also amazing that I can talk or chatt with them whenever I want (thx Buddha for facebook! haha) and the most amazing thing is I can always take a flight and visit them and I know I will be welcome. That's just lovely feeling.

All pics from the places I used to live in or visited so far remember me how wonderful my life is and how lucky I am. I'm looking at myself photos and I see pure happiness. Could be anything better?

The point is: there is no New Years Resolution that could make me be happier in 2011. The opportunity to travel and meeting all these fascinating people, discovering new cultures, places and crossing mind borders...this is what I've been doing for last 5 years and this is what I still love ;-) no dreams, only goals.

ps Aries Horoscope for January 2011:
'You will get a message from a person you hardly know. It will change your way of thinking'

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year! Let's ROCK the 2011!!!

im in such a good mood from yesterday new years eve party ;-)
i supposed to go to Praque but later on we (me and my bros) decided to stay and make a home party ;-)
it was fun.
im a bit tired, went to bed at 7 am and slept about 3 hours. right now sitting and watching ski-jumping... as i love flying and i love height (and im afraid of it at the same time - weird) i cant imagine how amazing feeling it might be when you fly like those guys...even if it takes only a few seconds. also staying at the heightest point of ski jump must be cool, i really hope one day i will have the opportunity to do it! (not that i didint try, i tried a few years ago in Zakopane, but the security catched me after all...bastards!)

so in this very new year i would like to wish you all the best... dream, make your dreams true and just take the best of every day. stay positive, stay happy ;-)

oh, and of course great parties (and no hangover next day!), gorgeous sex every night, lovely family and best friends around;-)

lets rock the 2011! it will be our year!